Stay – Five Minute Friday

I’m linking up with Lisa Jo Baker over at The Gypsy Mama for Five Minute Friday again. Join in the pure joy of writing for  5 minutes flat without editing or over thinking.  Click the button below to join in the fun!

STAY

Go…

“Sit!”

“Stay!”

“No, please, stay!”

Sadly, we said goodbye to our Sweetdog this past July.  It was heartbreaking.  None of us were quite prepared (is anyone, ever, really?) for herdeparture.  And, for us to have to aid in it was even more hurtful.

I so wanted her to get better, for the medicine to work, for a  miracle of instant ability to befall her.  I so wanted for her to be able to jump up onto the couch and nuzzle in with abandon like she was a Chihuahua instead of the 72 pound Labrador that she was (we never told her that she wasn’t a lap dog – and she was quite happy believing otherwise).

What we received, instead, were pleading eyes begging for sweet relief that the medicine was not bringing.  A bladder that revolted against time and distances far too great for her pain-filled hips to take her.  We found ourselves lying down upon the floor and nuzzling in next to her with abandon, as if we were the 70 pound Labradors instead of the 100 and something pound humans that we are.

And in the end, she could not stay.  It still makes my heart hurt.  This furry friend of ours.  My first “baby”, actually.

Time marches on.  God replaces the searing pain of loss of a family pet with a dull throb.  And occasionally, even, a chuckle over a fond memory.

I wish she could have stayed.  But now, she can “Sit!” at the feet of the throne of the one who made even the animals.  And I’m just sure Jesus is playing a mighty game of Fetch with all of the furry friends we’ve each had to let go of.

On second thought, I’d rather she just be able to “Stay!” right there.

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12 thoughts on “Stay – Five Minute Friday

  1. Oh, Missy. My heart entered your sorrow. And I even chuckled with you over the thought of your sweet labrador thinking she was a lap dog. My Springer Spaniel is snoring loudly at the moment, overtaking the couch. And reading your post makes me want to hug her and love on her, because time does pass so quickly. I’m so sorry for your loss. Blessings, friend.

  2. Pingback: Five Minute Friday: Stay | Even A Girl Like Me

  3. Oh friend…do you accept cyber hugs? {{SQUEEZE}}
    Nothing can prepare your heart for that…nor should it. Because how would we know we were capable of loving like that if it did?
    thanks for loving your baby enough to do what was best.
    I feel like hugging you again… ; )

    Missed chatting with you last night! #FMFParty

  4. oh, my…so sorry for the loss of your “first baby”…we also said bye to my “first baby” and our dog, Jubi, this past July…if he had been alive, this past 11/15 would have been the 14th anniversary of when we adopted him…praying God comforts you and your family…it is so painful…hugs to you, friend.

  5. We too lost a pet this year. My dear baby birdie. She was in so much pain and though I resisted, my husband prevailed in wisdom and had the vet help us give her permanent relief. I was distraught, but for the first time in months she looked restful and at peace. All God’s little creatures are in his hands. Thank you for sharing your grief.

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