Living in The After

We celebrate Sweetgirl’s 5th birthday today (Friday).  So, I’m up late preparing.  I thought I’d take an extra 5 minutes to write with my friends over at Lisa-Jo Baker’s Five Minute Friday community.  I’ve missed them so.  Click the button below to join in or to read what was written in a frenzy of unedited heart-to-fingertip-to-keyboard minutes.

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AFTER

GO…

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It’s taken far too long for me to exhale. Moving into new diagnosis and new stages of development and awareness and territory.  I realize, now, that I have held my breath for far too long.  My days of mothering, loving, moving in and through and maybe, most of all, my days of Dark, have caught up to me.

After I exhale, I realize that what I needed is not what I had thought at all.

It is not more hours.

It is not more cooperation.

It is not even more love.

What it is, that I need, is to recapture the joy.

There is joy in the morning.

And I had forgotten.

It took a Sunday of rejoicing and pondering what all happened after the pierced nails wouldn’t hold, for me to get it.

He did that so that I could do exactly this.

And that?  That is cause for joy.

Oh, yes indeedy!  And I am going to slather myself in the joy of this rememberance.

For it is a time of celebration.

A birthday.

And, a new beginning.

And, also? A realization, and no small one, that because of what was accomplished after that horrendous Friday at Calvary, I can joyfully go about my days.

No more holding my breath waiting for the other shoe to drop.

It already has.

And He won.

I forgot.

But I remember, now, that I’m living in The After.

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36 thoughts on “Living in The After

    • Dolly, the freeing part is what lodges in my heart like a huge stick of joy! Love that we are able to exhale together.

  1. I’ve got to remember to breath as well Missy. This was wonderful. I thought of writing on my thoughts “after” Easter this year. But I couldn’t. I’m stuck in this emotional place. Maybe I just need to breathe deeply and go forward. I so enjoy your writing.

    • Jamie – That means so much to me. I’m struggling to stay out of the rut. And breathing deeply day in and day out. Let’s do it together now… In. Out. In. Out. Hugs to you!

  2. EEEKKKK LOVE this!!! Don’t like hard things like diagnosis and facing new challenges – but I love your heart in all of this!!!

    • Thank you, Fiona! If I keep yielding my heart, I’m hoping that the “hard things” get easier to bear. I’m so glad you were encouraged!

  3. These words of yours spoke volumes to me: “And, also? A realization, and no small one, that because of what was accomplished after that horrendous Friday at Calvary, I can joyfully go about my days.

    No more holding my breath waiting for the other shoe to drop.

    It already has.

    And He won.

    I forgot.

    But I remember, now, that I’m living in The After.”

    You know, we move about and forget, don’t we. We take so much for granted – gosh. Makes me think. I also liked the way you remind me that the other shoe did drop and He won. Wow. Thanks a bunch for your post. Jenn

  4. I love this, Missy! So beautifully written and a great encouragement. You’ve set my eyes on a glorious after! Sending blessings and love! Happy Birthday to your sweet girl! Mine turns five next month! 🙂

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  6. I must admit that I am experiencing so much joy in these past two years that I can say I actually get what “spiritual joy” is…not dependent on circumstance or others…that sounds terrible since I have been a walking Christian since I was 20! Not that I have never experienced his joy before, but I solidly get it and could actually speak with confidence.
    I love your encouraging post and am happy to start getting to know you! We celebrated my 5 year old sons’ b-day in Jan.–how fun! Happy Birthday to your daughter!

    • Dionne, I’m encouraged by your ability to “speak with confidence.”! There is something deeply joyful once we “get it”.

    • Ps: this post is so true. I, myself, am trying to also live and embrace that joy comes in the morning, joy comes in the morning, joy. comes. in. the. morning.

  7. Dear Missy
    The one thing I am still holding my breath for is when our Beloved comes back to take us home. Can you hust imagine what a wedding that is going to be!
    Love to you

  8. Thank you for sharing the joy that Christ’s death brings to us. Praying for joy.
    Happy birthday to your little girl!

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