I Need To Remember

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I’ve been giving My Story quite a bit of thought lately.  We all have one. Some of us long to share ours. Some hide it deep in the recesses of our hearts, hoping that we never have to.  And still others seem to be able to tell theirs with abandon.

Which one are you?

God seems to be settling the weight of my task more firmly in my heart. Those Petal Soft Whispers are coming more and more frequently.  Through them, He’s been making it abundantly clear that I am to bring my story to Him, first.  I can honestly state that I am well and truly scared.  I need to remember that Perfect Love casts out fear.

Why do I struggle so mightily to step out in faith, in defiance of that fear?

Sifting through memories places me squarely in the sinking sand of emotions.  I find myself getting stuck on a particular period of time, and then on an exact year, and eventually, I feel like I’m sinking in the quicksand of a Specific Memory. I need to remember that God can pull me out.

Who is my solid rock on which I stand?

I’m at the point where I’m weeding through the parts of my story that aren’t mine to tell.  Obviously, my story can only be told from the perspective of the very heart that taps out the words.  But, I’ve started fretting over the wording of certain thoughts for fear of offending.  I need to remember to heed God’s whispers, not those of men.

If God is for me, whom shall I fear?

I’m going into the deepest darkest places.  But here’s the thing – God keeps shining the light of His truth into those places as I continue to learn to trust Him.  He keeps banishing the fear that tries so desperately to cripple me. My trust becomes more fully formed the more He loves me. I need to remember that it’s a matter of eternal perspective.

How do I refocus on the eternal in the midst of the daily?

It would seem, for me anyway, that this is also a maturing process.  The more words I present to my Audience of One to be sifted through, the more I realize that He has lessons for me that I haven’t mastered yet. I continually have to go back to Square One and ask Him to keep maturing me. I must keep asking Him to fill me with more Love to drive out the fear.  I need to remember that He is a Patient and Merciful Teacher.

How do I learn those lessons more quickly, Teacher?

At the end of the day, my only job is to submit what I feel He’s allowed me to see.  Those glimpses of heaven I’ve been given, here, on earth.  Those insights into grace seen on this side of glory.  Each piece of my story that I bring to God, He tenderly shapes and edits to fit His good purposes.  I need to remember that it is His Story, after all.

What about you? Do you long to tell your story?

May I encourage you to start getting it down?  Or to keep putting it down?  Or to bravely step out, with story in hand, knowing that if God’s been laying it on your heart to share it – then He will use it for His glory.

Or, maybe the desire of your heart isn’t quite fully formed in you. Yet.  I’d like to encourage you to keep praying for your desire to line up with God’s will until it becomes clear.

The truth is, that none of us, no – not a one, is fully formed yet.  We are all a work in progress.  Whatever that work may be.

And our job is to trust, but be ready. We must wait, while holding tight to the belief that God will reveal all in His perfect timing.  Not ours.

Oh Lord, form us fully in Your Love and help us to see Your Light in our story.

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31 thoughts on “I Need To Remember

  1. For me, it was coming to an understanding that God will NEVER humiliate us, and will always respect our privacy. He will edit and edit our story so that we can be brutally honest but without feeling unsafe in our own space. I’m so glad that you’ve decided to do it afraid and step out in courage – what you write is really beautiful!

    • Oh, “without feeling unsafe in our own space.” Yes, Jenn! I feel God chiseling away at the unnecessary bits exactly like that. Thank you VERY much for your thoughts, here!

  2. Wow. All of the “I need to remember” statements really hit home in my heart. Those are awesome, and I enjoyed reading the entire post. Thank you so much for sharing!

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  4. Missy, I love this post! It took me a long time to share the not-so-pretty parts of my life, because I had to begin to gain God’s perspective on them. Fortunately, God has done glorious things with my dark spots, and I pray that He continues to use the dark and the light spots for His glory!!!

  5. Missy, I can tell already, you were meant to write. So go for it. I understand, though, those scary parts in our past that are hidden deep and too painful to bring to the surface. I just started journaling when we started SLL. It was difficult at first, but now it’s fun. Some nights I just go back and read over what I have previously written and see how far my faith has come already. I have a niece entering high school and I bought her some devotionals to read and a couple of age appropriate books from P31. Also included a journal and some crazy strikers to get her started. I did the first page for her with some of my favorite Bible verses. So this writing thing is catching on….best of luck and may He inspire you along the way.

    • Sheila, thank you for your encouragement to keep at it. Reading back over things we’ve written previously is such an important thing to do. For me, it provides the reminder that God hears and sees. It also shows me that His answers, while not immediate sometimes, are always best. I pray He continues to inspire you, too.

  6. “At the end of the day, my only job is to submit what I feel He’s allowed me to see. Those glimpses of heaven I’ve been given, here, on earth. Those insights into grace seen on this side of glory. Each piece of my story that I bring to God, He tenderly shapes and edits to fit His good purposes. I need to remember that it is His Story, after all.” Yes! It is HIS Story and I get to be a part of it, and I get to share it with the world!

    • Lauren, that is just exactly why I started putting pen to paper. I wanted to leave something of myself for my children. Something that they could read back on for encouragement – or even understand for the struggles we all face and how to work through them. Thank you for the encouragement here, friend!

  7. Missy I think we all have one of those stories. I haven’t found the courage to share mine either. Loved that last paragraph “And our job is to trust, but be ready. We must wait, while holding tight to the belief that God will reveal all in His perfect timing. Not ours.”. Hugs. Debbie W. (OBS Group Leader)

  8. Amen, sister. What a beautifully written devotional to start my day… and yours. God gives us a story so that He’ll get the glory. Praying for you, Missy, as those whispers of love keep pouring into your heart. You go, girl!

  9. I have quick sand places in my life too… if I go there often, I am sinking… & they say if you panic, you sink faster in those places… that’s exactly what I do… isn’t it something though that they say if you relax, you will not sink, you can even rise up out of it? … Holy sinking sand Batman!!!… God just showed me something… if I’m going back to those places in my story – I’m going there with God to show me to be calm about them… He’ll rise me up out of it..

    Mini Blog by me brought in thanks to you & your words – haha!!!

    HUGS to you friend!

    Keep telling your story – your life & your words are so encouraging & teaching!

    • Rebecca Jo – you make me smile so big. The mini blog was perfect and so encouraging. We’ll just tag team from here on out, kay? 😉

  10. “The truth is, that none of us, no – not a one, is fully formed yet. We are all a work in progress. Whatever that work may be.” A big AMEN to that!! And I am so very thankful that He continues to work on me. 😀

    Have you already signed up for “What Happens When Women Say Yes to God?” I started reading it last night…it’s about stepping out in obedience. I can tell this is going to be an AWESOME study that will help transform us even more.

  11. I love how God has you and I in similar places. This is so spot on. It is hard work, allowing God to form you. It requires humility and daily surrender. But, when we do our little part, He does mighty things. I, too, am diving into the depths of my heart. And fear is there to greet me. But, I will not stop at my fear. You did a beautiful job with this. I mean, beautiful. I think of you SO often and know we need to Skype. Honestly, my heart has just not had a lot of “say” out loud lately. It’s been internal dialogue that I have treasured. However, I need some love, laughter and understanding from my sista! So, I may just text you at random and see when we can catch up. Love you lady.

    • Humility and daily surrender – two thoughts that often come to mind when I think of you. ❤ you my friend. Your "say" will come out when it's time. And it's always so very good.

  12. Oh and I LOVE the term… petal soft whispers… makes me want to lean right into those whispers… love it

  13. Thank you for sharing and being so transparent… this is something I struggle with and just recently I heard again! so start writing it down… putting pen to paper… and I appreciate your encouragement this morning in such a gentle and loving way. love you sister… so wish we were closer 🙂

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