Some of God’s greatest gifts truly are wrapped in unlikely packages. Mine came in all 6 pounds and 10 ounces of baby goodness. Sweetman and I loved every single inch of this package. He seemed perfect. We dreamed of life as parents of a bouncing baby boy.
Two years later, our lives were interrupted by the diagnosis of Autism. I could try to tell you how I wrapped myself around that diagnosis and accepted it with open arms, knowing that if “God brought us to it, He’d see us through it.” But I didn’t. I really didn’t.
Here’s what I did do:
- I cried out to God for answers
- I leaned hard and heavy on friends who loved us despite my child’s behaviors
- I continued to believe God had His hand in this, on us, and around him
- I learned the power of a desperate prayer thrown heavenward morning, noon, or night
were moments where I longed are still moments when I long to be able to take part in those conversations where I talk about the sports that are played, the interests that are pursued, the unique passions that are on display “already”. But I can’t.
What I can do, however, is to stick with it.
Because there isn’t any easy button for this life interruption.
I realize, now, that the healing of this mama heart of mine is going to be a life-long process. And there will be more heartache along the way. But, you know what? I can honestly tell you that I’m okay with that.
In fact, I say “Yes!” to God because my Sweetboy is fearfully and wonderfully made. By Him. For me.
And through it all, I’ve come to understand that this child? He is indeed perfect.
Oh yes he is.
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