So, this weekend, this happened:
It’s been Seven. Long. Years. 84 months of storage unit payments. 2,556 days of Forgotten Things.
We’ve avoided emptying that thing out for so many bad reasons and not a single good one.
But as we finally walked load after load of things out to the van, things that had no place in our lives for that seven years, something occurred to me: I began to see this emptying out as the year of Jubilee for all that stuff that has been languishing there for those many long days, turned months, turned years.
Just like all of those old textbooks and sorority pictures and wedding cards and end tables and chairs, I wondered if some of the sin that I tuck away and blatantly ignore would ever get a year of jubilee?
For there is sin that I carry around, locked away in a secret chamber of my heart. It is Chosen Forgotten Sin that I have no desire to visit. It depresses my spirit and drains away hope.
But for Grace.
And as I unloaded each box of forgotten books, or neglected piece of furniture, I realized that each one was making its first step into forever.
Some of these things would clearly need to be trashed.
Just like my sins would need to be, too.
Flung as far as the east is from the west, actually.
I couldn’t hang on to them for long years, pretending that they weren’t really there. I couldn’t allow those sins to continue to take up precious space.
Maybe the lesson hit me the hardest when I realized that things I once cherished, were not only neglected, but outright forgotten.
Much like my faith, at times, in the God who delivers grace.
I had forgotten.
Oh, how I had.
He doesn’t leave me to languish. My heart is not exempt from His searching.
So, I decided to declare A Year of Jubilee for my sins. I was going to release them to the east and west and claim Grace in their place.
But God beat me to it.
He was already there, waiting. And as I realized this, the celebrating began!
Because, as I wheeled that dolly down the hallway with a into a grace-filled forever, it was with a lighter heart.
“You see, God takes all our crimes—our seemingly inexhaustible sins—and removes them.
As far as east is from the west, He removes them from us.”
Psalm 103:12 (The Voice)