Dream chasing and encouraging and fulfillment has taken up plenty of space on this here blog, of mine.
And last month? Last month, I pursued one dream that I’ve harbored for a mighty long time. With encouragement poured in from friends and Holy whispers of “you are already enough” ringing in my ears, I entered a writing contest.
If what I write next isn’t The Most Anti-climactic Statement in the history of ever, I might not know what anti-climactic really means.
I didn’t win.
But, but, BUT… I submitted.
And y’all, that was huge. It was a step toward something I’ve been saying I wanted to do out loud for a sweet forever.
And since I didn’t win, I get to share my entry here. With all of you.
You, who keep me on my toes and support the stuffing out of me. (I wish. The stuffing remains.)
My submission may have gone belly up, but my bravery in continuing to pursue The Dream? Alive and kickin’!!!
What the Toilet Paper Taught Me
I grew up with a father who lived by the credo that we have ten boxes of Kleenex in the house at all times. I thought this was normal.
Until, that is, I flew the coop and lived on my own for the first time. My meager wages earned as a substitute teacher, while working as many jobs as possible until I landed my own full-time teaching job, barely covered one box of tissues – let alone ten! The idea of stockpiling Kleenex was laughable.
Years went by and I got the job, met a man, and started buying tissues ten boxes at a time. It only took two years of marriage and a visit from my in-laws for me to learn that this was normal to other people, too. Just, not always with tissues.
My husband’s parents live only a few hours away from us. One particular weekend, very soon after buying our first home, they made plans to visit and see what we’d done with the place.
A cleaning frenzy ensued. My inner Martha Stewart was ablaze in the kitchen, when my husband emerged from the bathroom, distraught.
“Please, TELL ME there is more toilet paper than this one roll,” he begged.
I mistakenly thought that reminding him that his parents would only be visiting for a few short hours would calm his agitated state.
“We DO have more than just this roll, though, right?” he pleaded again.
My choice of marital mate now fully in question, I reminded him, a little less gently this time, that his parents would only be visiting for four hours! And, while I don’t know how others’ bathroom experiences usually work, one double roll of toilet paper would probably suffice for four people in that short amount of time.
I shared this with him, jokingly.
This was a grave error on my part.
He slipped on his shoes, grabbed his keys and headed for the door. “I’m going to run out and buy us a six-pack. Just in case,” he announced. He looked pale.
At that moment, I understood. I knew what this was. This was the Kleenex manifesto, only with toilet paper.
I explained that there was no need, as I had bought a twelve pack, double-rolls no less, the day before.
Those words worked better than any aphrodisiac. He strode over, looked deeply into my eyes, and proclaimed that I really was the one for him.
Two very important lessons were learned that day. One, I had clearly married a version of my father. And two, my husband’s affections could be bought.
With toilet paper.