They invited me to meet with them after Bible study ended. This group of women, each one deeply respected and admired for their ability to lead women, were issuing me an invitation to join their team. Me!
But then, they leveled me with this statement: “We have faith in your ability to lead this ministry.”
And, as I looked around at each pair of wise, mature, and gracious eyes, I realized there was one huge problem.
My guilt and shame over my past made me feel out of my depth for anything other than participation. I was sure that they needed someone further along in this journey of faith, more mature in their understanding of God’s Word, or at the very least, not scared witless.
So I thought.
In chapter 5 of Limitless Life by Derwin L. Gray, he speaks to the “God who heals damaged people”.
Do you consider yourself damaged goods?
I surely did.
Now, I’m in awe of The God that takes every damaged bit of me and turns me into a “trophy of grace”*.
Jesus wants to make me a trophy of His grace.
He wants to make YOU a trophy of His grace!
He already sees you that way.
If that doesn’t make you want to leap up and fist pump the air with joy and thanksgiving, I’m not sure what could!
Each time I read these Words, waves and waves of grace wash over my dinged and damaged heart:
Last month, when I thought ugly thoughts and used harsh words, He died for me.
Last year, as I struggled to stay out of the pit, failing again and again, He died for me.
He died that I might stand on knock-kneed wobbly legs and lead a group of women into a deeper love for His Truth. For four years! He took so very many moments that I thought made me damaged goods and turned them into something useful. He filled in my dings with His Grace and Truth and Love.
Because, He is Grace and Truth and Love.
Even now, I long to get it right, but so often get it wrong.
But, His love never fails.
It never gives up.
Those skeletons in my closet? He knew.
That shameful behavior?
And He’s still right here, loving me anyway.
That is grace.
He is grace!
Admitting that I desperately need that, need Him, in my life?
Well, that takes me from damaged goods to trophy of grace, in one fell swoop!