Fear can instill some mighty heavy feelings in this heart of mine. I keep kicking the can down the road, where some of this fear is concerned. But, dang it all if it doesn’t so one little thing to help soothe that erratic heartbeat of mine!
If I know anything, (and let’s just agree that I know next-to-nothing), it’s that when fear grips, faith grows.
Faith in being an Overcomer.
Faith in The One who overcame all.
Faith that this grand story that I get to be a part of turns out Beautiful.
Next weekend, I will be swimming that quarter of a mile that I committed to swimming, a few careless weeks ago.
Sweetman asked me if he and the kids could come cheer me on.
I said no.
I’ll let that hang in the air a minute. It’s okay. I’m as ashamed to write it as I was to be feeling it.
Why in the world did I say no?
I didn’t want them to see me fail.
I didn’t want them to see me struggle.
I didn’t want them to see me come in last.
Fear really is the worst four letter word, isn’t it?
How dare I say that My People can’t come see what all of these morning “work” swims have been all about. Why shouldn’t they see me work hard and follow through on a commitment? Why shouldn’t they watch as I try?
Because, actually, to try is to win. I’m halfway there just by giving it a go!
And, you know what? I want them to see me give it a go!
Did you see what just happened there?
My faith… it just grew. It out-gripped that fear and overshadowed it and made my heart beat a little more steadily.
God, you tell me that I can do all things through you. And, that it’s You who gives me the strength to scoop and cup that water and slice through it with enough power to see me through to the end. Get me there, God. See me through, in Your power. Let my family see that I can indeed do all things through You, who strengthens me. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen! (taken from Philippians 4:13)
Oh God, what you can do with some Words.
My no has become a yes.
Oh, yes indeedy!